I am eternally indebted to the incredible Jack Handey, whose “Deep Thoughts” inspired my “Fools Rule” posts, and have kept me entertained and thinking for years. Many’s the time I’ve shot beer through my nose when coming across a particularly deep “deep thought”. That’s enlightenment for you…

Anyhow – I spent a good part of an afternoon trying to track Jack down, so that I could get permission to use his quotes on my blog. It’s the right thing to do. Especially when his website expressly forbids unauthorized use of his comedic material…

Well – as it turns out, Mr. Handey is a connection of a connection of mine on LinkedIn… I guess all those years in Hollywood finally paid off! 😉

I asked my friend to forward my request to Jack himself, along with a link to my blog. Today I got his reply:

“Sure, the guy can post some Deep Thoughts, as long as it’s not too many
at one time. Thank him for asking. Lots of people don’t.” ~ (Jack Handey)

Getting a reply at all was great.

To be given the go-ahead to use a couple of select quotes is fantastic.

But to have someone acknowledge your basic decency – priceless.

I’m glad I went out of my way to do the right thing. Us bloggers are irritated when news outlets steal our content and post it verbatim. I get more than annoyed seeing whole albums of my music available for free on sharing sites, and films I’ve composed the music for being downloaded for nothing. It’s out-and-out theft.

It’s up to us to make the effort. Not just presume that an image, a quote, an article is there for the taking, just ‘cos it’s there…

Here endeth the first (and last) lesson.

Thanks, Jack. Keep writing!



Visit www.deepthoughtsbyjackhandey.com

Buy the Deep Thoughts trilogy herehere, or here

Check out other books by Jack Handey here.

Fools Rule: On Shlemmings.

Posted on February 28th, by batmandela in Fools Rule. 4 comments

This is not a blog about ticket price hikes and how they reflect the insensitivity of a profitable institution towards its loyal fanbase.

It’s not about how Arséne Wenger’s apparent tightfistedness and shortsightedness may lead to his undoing. I also don’t want to discuss the rumour that he has a contract ready-signed, and that the club is just waiting for an opportune moment to ram it down our throats – a Sagna/Rosicky contract renewal announcement, for instance.

I’m not interested in writing about how ironic it is that our star signing initiated the collapse of our Champions League campaign with his second consecutive (lackadaisical) CL PK miss.

And – while I’m not at it – I’m also not convinced that Arsenal can repeat last season’s performance in the upcoming return fixture at the Allianz Arena. As Heraclitus said, “A man cannot cross the same river twice.” Besides – as fantastic as last year’s heroic failure might have been, Bayern Munich did appear to be resting on their laurels somewhat. (At least until the second goal.) I doubt that they’ll make the same mistake twice.

So I’m certainly not wasting my time writing about that!

The latest rumours about Morata having already signed a … Read More »

My Arsenal, My Church – Pilgrimage Diary (Part 1)

Posted on November 1st, by batmandela in Eye Candy, General. No Comments

Pilgrimage Diary (Part 1)

Hi. I’m Batmandela. I’m an atheist. I don’t believe in God. Or Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy or the Easter Bunny. That’s not to say I don’t have my own personal pantheon of ‘deities’. I do.

My Arsenal, My Church (Part 1)

Posted on October 30th, by batmandela in Eye Candy, General. 2 comments

Part 1 of my Pilgrimage Diary…

Hi. I’m Batmandela. I’m an atheist. I don’t believe in God. Or Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy or the Easter Bunny. That’s not to say I don’t have my own personal pantheon of ‘deities’. I do.

Fools Rule: On Göggle-eyed Göds & Monsters

Posted on September 27th, by batmandela in Fools Rule. 1 Comment

There’s all this panicked talk about how we need another striker, in case our current one goes on le blink. It seems the loud and unwashed masses are not comfortable with any of our current alternatives.

Perhaps eyebrows are over-rated? They don’t serve any real purpose, except for frowning. And besides – Barca have managed pretty well without an eyebrow. Yes – you say – but they have the monobrowed monarch Messi…

Well. We’ve got the göggle-eyed göd, Mesut.

The Gooner Disposition – Portrait of an Arsenal Fan

Posted on August 1st, by batmandela in Eye Candy, General, Opinion. 2 comments

“The Gooner Disposition – Portrait of an Arsenal Fan”

Philosophy for Gooners (Part 1)

Posted on May 28th, by batmandela in General, Opinion, Philosophy For Gooners. 1 Comment

What type of Gooner are you? Part One of what will probably be a one-part series. 😉

Exclusive! Wenger Replacement Revealed…

Posted on March 31st, by batmandela in General, Opinion, The Club. 1 Comment

Arsenal Emergency Press Conference. March 31st, 2013. Easter Sunday…

Mikel Arteta: Captain Fanplastic

Posted on March 24th, by batmandela in Eye Candy, General, Opinion. 3 comments

Inspired by Dave Seager from 1nildown2oneup.net – here is the latest in the “Get Behind Your Team” series, accompanied by an explanation from Blogzilla himself. Enjoy!

Rocky Rocastle – Never Forgotten

Posted on March 16th, by batmandela in General, The Club. 1 Comment

An Invinciblog visual tribute to Arsenal legend David “Rocky” Rocastle. (March 31, 2013 is the 12th anniversary of Rocky’s death, at the age 33, of non-Hodgkins lymphoma.)

Fools Rule: Fanning The Fire

Posted on March 10th, by batmandela in Fools Rule, General, Opinion. 5 comments

Our motto says it all: Victory Through Harmony. Perhaps that’s the biggest lesson we have to learn? As Gunners. If we’re ever to start winning again…

Cheer up, Gooners!

Posted on March 4th, by batmandela in General. 4 comments

Stay positive. Keep things in perspective. It’s not over ’til the fat lady sings.

Leaked! Spurs New Crest!

Posted on March 3rd, by batmandela in General. No Comments




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Jack Wilshere – Monkey-tamer.*

Posted on March 2nd, by batmandela in General, The Squad. 9 comments

*No Bales were harmed during the photo shoot. Saving that for tomorrow.

Interpreting Wenger

Posted on January 29th, by batmandela in Fools Rule, General, Gunner's Handbook, Opinion, Transfer News. No Comments

Another day. Another news conference. Another opportunity for our poker-faced, fork-tongued, sweet-talking manager to perfect the dark art of opacity.

Game Of Two Halves – Team Of One Half

Posted on January 27th, by batmandela in Fools Rule, General, Opinion. No Comments

A cockroach can survive for a few weeks without its head. Chelsea survived at least as long without John Terry.

There’s a lot Gunners can learn from Science and Nature. Fools Rule brings you a few curious factoids, and applies them to the Arsenal Experience. Enjoy!

Invinciblog Exclusive! Adams Interview…

Posted on January 25th, by batmandela in Fools Rule, General, Gunner's Handbook, Opinion. 5 comments

On May 11, 2001, Arsenal lost the FA Cup Final to Liverpool. 2-1, in Cardiff.

On the same day, in Santa Barbara, California, beloved author and Arsenal supporter Douglas Adams’ world did end. He died suddenly of a heart attack at the tender age of 49.

Let’s just say it was a bad day for Gooners and leave it at that.

The following is an imaginary interview with Douglas Adams. (DA) – conducted by yours truly: Batmandela (BM). Mr. Adams’ replies are culled, verbatim, from his numerous books, letters and scripts. It is an interview I would have loved to have conducted during Douglas Adams’ lifetime. But things don’t always work out the way we planned.

I have a feeling, though, that he’d have found this concept mildly amusing…

Scoring Goals & Landing Planes

Posted on January 22nd, by batmandela in General, Gunner's Handbook, Opinion. No Comments

Gunner’s Handbook: Scoring Goals is not that different to landing planes. What Arsenal could learn from Air Traffic Controllers.

Fool Metal Jacket (Part 2)

Posted on January 19th, by batmandela in Fools Rule, General, The Anger Games. No Comments

Ladies and Gentlemen. Um… Gentlemen.

Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Lord Atticus Barton-Shawcross. I am a retired SAS Colonel. I spent 23 years working in Covert Operations, until changes in modern warfare, introduced by chicken-shit – excuse my French – civilian commanders, severely curtailed our ability to operate in the effective manner to which we were accustomed.

The 'new rules' of combat essentially emasculated us, by introducing restrictive procedural guidelines, punitive post-operation review, and political oversight. Basically – we had our nuts removed, and replaced with estrogen-infused, non-toxic, hypo-allergenic potpourri pouches.

Killing people just wasn't fun any more. Which is why I left.

I started my own 'Private Security and Logistics' company. I sold toilet paper to the Armed Forces for $5.00 a roll. And then charged them $5.00 to remove the cardboard tubes when the paper was finished. Stuff like that. And I used the millions of dollars I made to create my own army. And get things done the old way, if you catch my drift.

In short – I found a way to do what I loved, however the frick I wanted, and get paid a lot of money doing it.

What the hell has this got to do … Read More »

Arsenal’s Biggest Asset: Us.

Posted on January 16th, by batmandela in General, Opinion, The Club. 2 comments

Arsenal Inc. seems to have forgotten to include an essential material in the building of their Emirates Empire. Is it too late?

A Gunner’s Handbook: Surviving Arsenal

Posted on January 9th, by batmandela in General, Gunner's Handbook, Opinion. 1 Comment

How to survive being an Arsenal fan in these trying times.

2013 – The Year Of The Gun [RSS]

Posted on January 2nd, by batmandela in Barclays Premier League, General, Opinion, Tarot, The Club, The Squad. No Comments

Invinciblog takes an in-depth look at the challenges facing Arsenal.

2013 – Year Of The Gun

Posted on January 2nd, by batmandela in General, Opinion, Tarot. 5 comments

Invinciblog takes an in-depth look at the challenges facing Arsenal.

State Of The Blog Address – 2013

Posted on January 1st, by batmandela in General, Opinion, Tarot. No Comments

When I started Invinciblog in mid-August, it was my intention to create an Arsenal blog that was different. Eclectic. Unpredictable. Personal. There are some superb blogs out there – brilliant in their analysis of all aspects of Arsenal: the team, the tactics, the finances, the politics – written by Gooners far more qualified than I in providing insightful commentary on the daily ups-and-downs, ins-and-outs, comings-and-goings (or goings-and-goings) of the Club.

I wanted to present a unique window on the Gunner Experience. Specifically, this Gunner's experience. And, in the interest of freshness, I wanted to explore different ways of presenting the agonies and ecstacies to which Arsenal fans willingly submit themselves by choosing to support this particular club, using different media, satire, parody, divination…

Being a football fan is like subscribing to the world's greatest soap opera. Its plot twists and turns, the characters rise and fall; it is drama, unscripted, relentless. Football is Life made visible. Politics, Economics, Spirituality, Anthropology – they are concepts made tangible, objectified, when viewed through the prism of the Beautiful Game. Allowing yourself to fall under Football's spell means giving yourself over completely to the power of the moment – placing your current well-being in the hands … Read More »

Change Ain’t Gonna Come: Football. Technology. Power.

Posted on December 11th, by batmandela in FIFA, Fools Rule, Opinion. No Comments

There is only one thing standing between Football and the adoption of essential technologies, which have proved so effective in other major competitive sports (Tennis, Rugby, Cricket). That thing is a wrinkly, bald-headed, big Swiss cheese named Septic Bladder (Name changed to protect identity) – the President of football governing body, FUFA (Name changed to protect identity).

Fool’s Rule Part 4: The Upside Of A Meltdown

Posted on December 5th, by batmandela in Fools Rule, General, Opinion. No Comments

Arsenal’s not going down the plug anytime soon. But if it does – here’s a little yellow rubber duck to cheer you up. Fools rule.

The Arsenal Connection

Posted on December 3rd, by batmandela in General, Opinion. 1 Comment

One day we’ll find it – The Arsenal Connection – the Gunners, the Muppets, the Team. (Victory Through Harmony)…

Don’t Blame Arsenal. Blame God. Here’s Why…

Posted on November 24th, by batmandela in Fools Rule, General, Opinion. 4 comments

There are Laws that govern everything – from which way up your toast lands when you drop it, to how your finger accidentally pushes “SEND” when that’s the last thing you wanted to do. For the first time ever (on this blog, at least) – I have gathered a collection of these Laws, to shed some light on why Arsenal behave like they do. When you’re about to tear your hair out – reach for this instead. And realize that everything will be OK in the end. And if it’s not OK – it’s not the end. 😉

Fool Metal Jacket

Posted on November 16th, by batmandela in Fools Rule, General, Opinion, The Anger Games. No Comments

Pitchfork and torch sales are up. So are black scarf sales. And apparently Cleaver & Gush – (Purveyors of Fine Guillotines – By Appointment To Her Majesty The Queen) have had an inordinate number of hits on their website. Which can only mean one thing:

Yup. Some fans may be content to just sit back and watch their Arsenal slide into obscurity. Others are revolting.

You can catch the latter at any given moment: indiscriminately flaming other online Gooners. Hysterically tweeching:

“We want our Arsenal back! #WengerOut”

“Y r hapy with decade of no troaphy Arsenal? UR n idiot. Same like Wenger. #WengerOut”

“Wenger is runing our club. We need Guadoila hell fix it Barcilona always win silverwere. #PepIn #WengerOut”

Temperatures are rising. Fingers are being pointed. Matches are being boycotted. Marches are being planned. The team is being booed. (And all the while, the media gleefully amplifies the noise – not the signal – perhaps because it fits in better with their let’s-criticize-Arsenal-at-every-opportunity agenda?)

Possibly inspired by the Arab Spring, or the Occupy Movement – angry Arsenal fans are saying ‘enough is enough’ and clamouring for heads to roll… starting with the head of our once-revered Manager, Arséne Wenger. And ostensibly followed by those … Read More »

The Anger Games (Part 1)

Posted on November 11th, by batmandela in General, Opinion, The Anger Games. 29 comments

Temperatures are rising. Arsenal is boo-ed off the pitch at half time. Things could turn ugly…


Posted on October 28th, by batmandela in General, Opinion, The Squad. 2 comments

A rather ruffled ARSÉNE WENGER pushes a large shopping cart packed with footballers up to the counter. He fumbles through his pockets, eventually producing a fistful of wrinkled receipts, which he places on the counter…

Arsenal Vibrations (PG13)

Posted on October 14th, by batmandela in General, PG13, Uncategorized. 3 comments

PG13 – Viewer discretion advised…
A risqué look at ‘alternative’ revenue sources.

Arsenal and the Holy Grail

Posted on October 9th, by batmandela in Champions League, General, Opinion, Tarot. 9 comments

The story of Parcival is practically word-for-word the story of our hunky French striker! It’s like History repeating itself! History repeating itself! And here’s the good part…

Arsenal Cookbook (Part 1): Breakfast

Posted on October 4th, by batmandela in Arsenal Cookbook, General, The Squad. No Comments

Today we’re going to make a meal out of that simplest, most traditional of breakfasts…

Wenger Diaries (Part 1): A Golden Goat

Posted on October 2nd, by batmandela in General, Wenger Diaries. No Comments

Exclusive! Excerpts from Arséne Wenger’s personal diaries*… Le Prof, as you’ve never seen him before: Raw and exposed.

(*Not really)

Arsenal Haik-who?

Posted on September 26th, by batmandela in General, The Squad. 4 comments

What do you do when your throat’s on fire, your sinuses are exploding and your fever’s rising? You wake up in the middle of the night and write a haiku for each member of the Arsenal squad, that’s what. See if you can figure them all out…

Shocking Revelation: The Inevitable Fall of Manchester!

Posted on September 22nd, by batmandela in General, Opinion. 3 comments

I’m not the kind of person who lets facts and stats get in the way of what I believe. (You’ve probably realized that by now.) So I have to rely on other things to support my fantastical Arsenal theories, such as the Tarot, or silly quotes. That way, I’m always right, and no-one can argue with me or prove I’m an idiot.

Fools Rule (Part 3) – Gunners Divine

Posted on September 20th, by batmandela in Fools Rule, General, Opinion. 1 Comment

Is it a bird? is it a plane? is it Superman? No, wait… It’s just dust on the lens…

Wishful Sinking: Why We Should forget van Whatsisname.

Posted on September 12th, by batmandela in General, Opinion. 1 Comment

Us Gunners are a passionate bunch. No doubt about it. And competitive rivalry between clubs is an essential part of being a supporter. But, in the same way that we run the club with solid principles, and play the game with a sense of style, so should we, I believe, conduct ourselves in an appropriate manner.

The Sting In The Tale

Posted on September 11th, by batmandela in Barclays Premier League, General, Opinion. 2 comments

The Arsenal fairy tale du jour is that Ian Wright, Thierry Henry, Dennis Bergkamp AND Robin van Persie all opened their Arsenal league goal-scoring accounts against Southampton…

Fools Rule (Part 2) – On Branding

Posted on September 9th, by batmandela in Fools Rule, General, Opinion. 2 comments

They say we are all dying from the moment we’re born. Likewise: from the moment a player signs for us, he is already heading for the door. I have a solution for this – which may sound harsh – but I do believe that if it is performed humanely, it may solve the problem…

Fools Rule (Part 1)

Posted on September 8th, by batmandela in Fools Rule, General, Opinion. 5 comments

Shakespeare (whoever that really is) was a very clever man. If he was alive today he’d probably be Aaron Spelling, and live in a fancy mansion in Bel-Air. (If he was a bit of a thug, he’d be Harvey Weinstein). I say this, because Shakespeare was way ahead of his time. He wrote some of Hollywood’s best screenplays before movie screens had even been invented.

Now, it’s important to note here that I’m not a historian. Or even a scientist. But I think it’s safe to assume that the main reason they didn’t bother inventing the movie screen back in the Dark Ages – remember, there was no electricity back then – is because they couldn’t find a candle big enough to project film without setting it on fire. (I’m sure medieval Edisons experimented frantically, and that there may even have been filmed evidence of these projection experiments, but sadly, the evidence would have been lost during the experiments themselves. So, alas, my theory can never be proved. Anyhow, I digress. Back to Shakespeare…)

There is another reason that Shakespeare were a very clever collective, and that reason is the inspiration of this blog. You see: each of Shakespeare’s screenplays had a … Read More »

The Four Of Cups – “Please, Sir, can I have no more.”

Posted on September 4th, by batmandela in General, Opinion, Tarot. 2 comments

Four of Cups: Weariness, disgust, aversion, imaginary vexations, as if the wine of this world had caused satiety only; another wine, as if a fairy gift, is now offered the wastrel, but he sees no consolation therein. This is also a card of blended pleasure. Contrarieties.

I'm constantly amazed by the card my iPad Tarot App spits up for me when I finally find the nerve to update this new Arsenal blog of mine. (By the way – in the event that you're a Gunner who has clicked on a link to this post from a trusted Twitter source – don't fret: you haven't accidentally stumbled on some vacuously whimsical Dark Arts weblog!)

Despite a carefully considered warning from the fantastically talented @arse2mouse – I have decided to plough on (rewardless) with the crazy idea of allowing a Tarot deck to dictate my invinciblog subject matter… Like sex, it was slightly daunting at first. But now I'm getting the hang of it, and starting to have fun with the new positions I'm presented. (Perhaps this blog would be more aptly called Crouching Gooner, Hidden Tarot!)

Apparently good sex involves a fair amount of extra-sensory perception. 😉 Knowing when to put this … Read More »

The Nine Of Pentacles – Arsenal Electric

Posted on September 1st, by batmandela in General, Opinion, Tarot. 6 comments


“Prudence, safety, success, accomplishment, certitude, discernment…”

Well, another D-Day comes and goes. The shelling stops and the casualties are counted. After the grief and the licking of the wounds, time to regroup and take stock. The battle is over, but the war has just begun…

Arsenal was under siege on numerous fronts before winter's curtain lifted, and summer's silly season began. The brain confirmed what the heart suspected: we once again had top-ranking double-agents in our midst, turncoats lured to our greatest adversaries by the promise of silver and gold.

We struck preëmptively, and secured potential deputies. We put ourselves in advanced positions for vital reinforcements and acquisitions. We seemed to have the ammunition and desire to reverse our misfortune – but ultimately, for reasons beyond our control, the opportunities came and went, and we had to remain content to merely hold our lines, and trust that we had enough firepower to get us through the rapidly approaching hostilities.

“Prudence, safety, discernment…”

Once again, we have a fanbase up in arms about our transfer window (in)activity. Despite the overt criticism of last year's panicky deadline day shopping spree, the Goonerverse clamoured for purchases which, in the light of a new day, … Read More »

On contracts…

Posted on August 26th, by batmandela in General, Opinion, Tarot. 2 comments

“When is a door not a door? When it is ajar…”
“When is a contract not a contract..?”

It bothered me during the Great Cescape – when our club captain, with four years remaining on his contract, was allowed to throw the world’s longest, sulkiest hissy-fit – making himself useless to the Club, and forcing a move back to Barcelona.

It bothered me this week, when Alex “Blingalicious” Song slouched off to follow Fabregas to basque in golder pastures. (Our Top Deck midfielder was supposedly unhappy with his mere £55 000-per-week salary – hence the insolence? – and before you could say “WTF..?” he was gone). This despite two, maybe three years remaining on his contract.

Penis Over Brain had us bent over a barrel for nigh on a year – before he practically took a dump in it with his July 4th Declaration of Independence: the footballing equivalent of a ‘Dear John’ letter – and turned what should have been a routine contract extension into a drawn-out, messy divorce. (A divorce that left us with the house and the memories: he got to marry the home-breaking slut; and keep the kid. (Kid was a Man Utd supporter anyway, so, no loss there…)

Even as … Read More »


Posted on August 20th, by batmandela in General, Opinion, Tarot. 2 comments

“Misery, distress, indigence, adversity, calamity, disgrace, deception, ruin.
It is a card in particular of unforeseen catastrophe.”

Hmmm. Maybe I need to find a more optimistic Tarot deck. It’s behaving rather like a black-bag-Gooner at present… The urge to ‘cheat’ and draw another card was almost irresistible, but I guess there is an Arsenal-appropriate lesson to be learned by accepting the hand I’ve been dealt, and making the most of it.

“Misery, disgrace, deception”

Do I wish that our traitorous captain hadn’t issued his foolish and ill-advised Independence Day statement? Yup. Do I regret that he backed his Manager, his Club, into a corner – forcing them to sell him to the only club that showed interest? Yes, sirree. And most of all: do I regret that that club was our sworn enemy? Of course I do.

I would have loved to have seen him be true to his many words, and only win trophies with his beloved childhood club. For a gray-haired, glass-ankled donkey, he sure had a great last season – “dragging us over the finish line” (with a little help from his friends…) But the donkey has joined the Dark Side and gone off to join Shrek at you-know-where. Too … Read More »

VI * THE LOVERS (reversed)

Posted on August 14th, by batmandela in General, Opinion, Tarot. 3 comments

“Failure, foolish designs”


Aaah. That magical number, 49… The number of games the Invincibles went unbeaten. A number that is unlikely to be breached in the near future, unless the Man City Oilers or the Chelsea Mobsters, or some other hideously wealthy club decides to buy every top player available and benches all but their Chosen XI, thereby eliminating the competition entirely.

Could happen.

There are a few top division clubs who could field two perfectly competitive First Teams from their 25-man squads, their benches are that ‘deep’. Then again – there’s depth, and then there’s d e p t h…

Looking in from the outside, (as I am), it seems a little skeezy. A bit like having a spare jet. You know: overkill. What with the insurance, maintenance and finding a spare parking spot at the airport… But this new breed of ultra-wealthy superclub seems to subscribe to the “Waste, want.” school of thought, rather than the “Waste not, want not” ideal that binds those of us more financially …um …retarded.

To them it makes sense. Nothing but the best. Actually, that’s not entirely true. Nothing but a few of the best, more like.

Anyhow. I digress. Where was I? Oh yes: 49. That magical … Read More »

Hello world!

Posted on June 29th, by batmandela in General. No Comments

I’m not an Arsenal fan. Fans blow hot and cold. I’m an Arsenal supporter.

It’s different.

I was a fan of Olivia Newton-John for a week or two, back in the day – when she urged me to get Physical with her, flirting at me, upside down, from between her shapely leotarded legs. I’m not a fan anymore. And I walked through the rain singing Erasure’s “Sometimes” after a particularly messy adolescent breakup. That song’s not on my iPod anymore. Doubt it ever will be.

Fans are fickle. They lavish their attention on whatever tickles their fancy in that moment. (SQUIRREL!) They give you their undying devoted love forever. Or for the half life of a Seaborgium-266 isotope. Whichever comes first.

I’m in it for the long haul.

Supporting something means carrying it around with you forever. Like herpes.